March 20th Part 1...

 “Once you make me question my insecurities as a woman it’s a wrap. But I have to keep in mind that he is the Other Guy and he’s not like Him at all….”
 -Late night drunk thoughts

Okay readers going to keep this one short and sweet…
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It’s been 4 months since we’ve seen each other and the when the time came we didn’t talk just cuddled in the bed. Besides, I was tired with working two doubles in a row and staying up waiting for “Him”. It would have been an awkward situation if I didn’t kick the “Other Guy” out in time. I know I said I was done with “Him” and in fact I really was but when the “Other Guy” didn’t give me any sex, I resorted back to “Him”. I really didn’t mean to kick the “Other Guy” out. While cuddling with “Him” all I could think about is what other things I could have done to prevent the situation that happened with the “Other Guy”. Maybe I should have been a little more aggressive in my approach than just sitting there half way naked on his lap. Maybe it wasn’t me like his said. Maybe he really was just high as hell. At that time all my insecurities as a woman came back. And I wasn’t for it. My best friend said our vibe was off at that time and that we will eventually work things out. But now “Him” and me are back again so I don’t know where that leaves the “Other Guy” and I.
 
As I start to get ready for work I thought, its Monday and it’s the first day of spring. Which means a whole new start to the rest of the year and a whole new start for the week. Now is the time for me to get things back on track. I really want to take this week and truly focus on myself. Had some fun for a while but now it’s back to gym life, working, creating new goals, and getting back financially stabled. I feel some lemons are going to be thrown at me again as I enter this new transition period. But like always, I will make lemonade out of them. See the irony in this? And maybe that’s why you shouldn’t date her.