#DearYou

“It's funny what you can do in front of a room full of people; that you can't do in front of one person” - Nina, Long Jones The Movie

Dear You...I have never met a guy who gave me the amount of butterflies you gave me when we first met. I was happy with my life, and who I have become as a person, and as a woman. I wanted someone I could build a new life with and a puppy and then come along with you. 

Dear You..I became in love with you because you weren't afraid to show me that you care. Our date nights were more than just going out to eat. We actually did fun activities. We had long conversations about life in general. There was this exciting spark between us. I saw a light in you that made me feel comfortable with you. And I will never forget the first time you held me all night. I loved you. 

Dear You...What happened to us? Was it when we moved in? Or was it the combination of us working together? Why do you feel the need to seek validation about your self-esteem from other women? I am not enough for you anymore? Why do I often feel you hide our relationship? Are you not happy to be with me anymore? Please make it make sense to me.

Dear You..I was only drinking because I couldn’t handle the mental thoughts that were going on in my head at times. Sometimes I wish we would have kept our relationship private. That probably would have eliminated so many other factors. And we could have kept living in our own bubble. 

Dear You..I can say I'm sorry for everything that went wrong in our relationship on my part. But you have to be willing to do the same. Maybe we moved too fast with things. Maybe this is the end all for us. Maybe there's still some way for us to save this. Or Maybe it’s time I think of myself. 

Dear You.. As I sit in the hotel room all I want you to do is hold me while I cry and you tell me everything will be okay. And the reality is, it’s not going to be that way. In reality I don't want to come home because I don't want to face the outcome. As a woman you always have to remember who was before the relationship and the woman you want to become after the relationship. And that's what life and relationships are all about..growing.
Dear You...Thank you...