#MessageToYou (2022 Intro)

It’s been a while since I have written something for the public to read. And I want to apologize to everyone who has been following this blog since Day 1. You all have seen me grow, learn, heal, grow again, learn more, heal again, and everything else. If I started back blogging about my life and dating life, I need to be the most valuable as possible for my readers. I was most open and honest about my dating life, but I wasn’t honest with my true feelings. I was always the type of woman to quickly move on or bury myself in my work. I never sat down to process my feelings and the reasons behind why I felt the way I did. When Covid hit, I thought I had no choice but to make sure this brand grew into something magnificent. I had no choice but to venture off into a career path financially. I wasn’t too worried about dating. I was content with who I had. And then I met someone.
I didn’t know how to communicate my triggers and past emotional outbursts to him. And if we are being honest, I never understood those until I had to be entirely by myself recently. For the entire of December, I couldn’t sleep. I had the worst anxiety. What caused my anxiety was this fear of change. I had an abrupt change in my life from friends to family to my current intimate relationships. That caused me to be very uncomfortable with being by myself in my thoughts. One day I couldn’t take it anymore, so I started journaling my thoughts. After Journaling my emotions and thoughts, I felt better. I was able to sleep. To sum this all up, “Friends,” it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel what you feel. Go through those emotions. Understand them. Learn from them. I started this blog not just as an outlet for me but as a guide. Everyone deserves a second chance at life. And maybe 2022 is my year to finally get it right. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not date her.