“There is no such thing as perfect. Nobody attains perfection. But if you keep trying, you grow and evolve, and to me that’s the point: To be a better person today than I was yesterday; to become the best possible version of myself.”
Sitting here with one foot up in a ace bandage wrap and the other on the floor. Thinking to myself how much of a stress this week this is going to be for me. I have the release of my blog video with no way of marketing it. Along with inventory count prep for my job. I'm trying to not worry myself but me having the type of personality I have, I can't. This blog video is going up for the world to see. I'm nervous. I started to wonder what else I could have done. What other scenes could have been acted out. More over, work this week is really going to be tough. Especially since I sprained my foot (or at least that's what the doctors at the ER said I did). I woke up Friday morning with my foot swollen and in pain. I rushed to the emergency room with panic. I called off work that day. I went to work for the next couple of days on one crutch and Norco. One foot up and the other one on the floor. No heels for a week. I love heels. I can't live with out them. But I guess we all gotta let some things go in life for a while that we all like. I was talking to one of my uncle's friend "TIP" for a week. To be honest, I really liked him. We are the same age with determination for goals. "TIP" was about to the top guy for me, that's until I sent a text message that money couldn't cash. That's right I sent him a very blunt text message and to my surprise, he is not that type of guy. So instead of me getting a funny sex text back, I got a "this is not going to work out" text. All I could do is say "okay" and move on. Or at this stage with this foot, hop along. One side of my wanted to lash out and say "FUCK YOU" "I'M A GREAT WOMAN". But then again, since I am growing..I kept my "I know what I'm worth" comments to myself. In the end any guy who claims they really like you but decides after one blunt text message they don't want to be "bothered" with you anymore automatically does not deserve your time. This like others came and went. Sitting here drinking a glass of wine with one foot up. But no matter what, I can always count on my best friend female friend a bottle of wine to make me come back to reality. And in reality, I'm growing. Not everything is meant to be perfect. But with time, patience, and growth everything will be just fine. So here is to us, the young women out there working and trying to catch the eye of "that one".
Out with old, in with the new is what they call it. What I call it is, moving on from the past. I didn't take any old relationships into the new year. Instead I looked at each one and decided if that person would do any justice in my future. I forgave some people and stood my distance against others. This year is more about achieving my highest beliefs. This year is about putting my growth into work. This year, is all about self energy. Meaning if a person is not fitting in with my current energy at that time, I can't vibe with them. I think friendships is an perfect example of this. My best female and I been friends for over 6 years now. One thing that her and I have learned when we need a break from each other. And ladies, we all have that one friend that we are inseparable from. But sometimes you and them just need a break. And it's not a bad thing at all. My best female friend and I know this. We can go two days not talking but on that third day, we will call just to check on one another. My New Year seemed so perfect. I wasn't in love or involved in anything romantic but I was happy. Happy to be around my family and close friends. Happy that I am living. Happy with the choice of coming back to Chicago. That was until I slipped and bruised my rib. Three days in house and not at work. I took that time for some self reflection on where I want to be as far as my career by fall 2016. As much joy as it would be to open another office, that might not be in my playing cards. So instead I'm going to focus on this new position that hopefully I qualify for. I put the plan in motion and last week even though I was limping from meeting to meeting, I shined. I took what I knew and turned it into a master plan. Now I have the plan in effect for the career. The love will follow no time for any guy that I can't see myself with in five years. Now it's time for this blog. I stopped blogging for a couple of weeks. Just to focus on work. Now this is why my life might get tricky. Turning this blog into a book and potentially having a reality TV show based off it, might get a little out of hand. But it wouldn't be a new year if I didn't have other trails to go through just to get me where I want to be. Can I do is not the question. Will I do it is an underline statement. Watch out world..this young sassy independent attitude has just gotten a dose of maturity to her life. So here is to me and 2016. For being more ready than ready itself.