I woke up this morning in my new bed. In my new apartment. It feels good to be back home. But a part of me is missing New York. But more over I'm happy with my new place. It's the apartment I wanted and dreamed of. As my family and close friends gathered for my HOUSEWARMING to celebrate, I can only imagine what my next big steps will be in life. I spent a whole week not blogging, not working, not thinking about anything else but getting my apartment together. To be honest, it felt great not having to worry about the worries of work. I think that was the break i needed. My last week in New York I curved every guy that wanted to spend time with me. To "My Weed Man" to my "My Bestfriend". I didn't see the purpose of kicking it with them. Didn't feel the passion to. Maybe that is considered a life changing point. Where one could not worry about kicking it with a boo of some sort. I ended my last night in New York in a club hanging around my co workers and the friends I have made. I pulled one of those leave the club and go straight to the airport move. Hung over the next day shopping for my apartment. But I didn't care. I was around my mom and little sis who I truly missed. I woke up a nervous reck on my first day back at the Chicago office. Yes, this was my old stomping ground and I ruled there. But now it's different and new. All new people that I now have to work with. Instead of having a small leadership team, I now have a huge leadership team. One would say I'm not the best team player and while one might say I'm more KNOWLEDGEABLE of processes and procedures than most. I often wondered what challenges they can give me. And truth to be told me being humble and learning is the challenge they are giving me. It's a lot i would like to change in this office but this week I'm focused on learning how they operate. It quite different from the New York office. I don't want to get into that mind set as if I'm an outsider but I also won't dumb myself down of the processes and procedures I know. I'm uncomfortable again. But like my VP stated before, you aren't growing if you're not uncomfortable. So here I am with all my determination, dedication, and motivation going on day two at this office. Trying to make sense of it all.
It's something about her. That's what they all say. It's always something about me. But what is this" something" others refer to? I grew up in a single parent home. No father, just a hard working mother who wanted the world for her child. I was always the social outkast in school. I was tall and skinny with big feet. Seriously; I wore a size 9 in fourth grade. The moment I lost my virginity in 8th grade was something I like to refer to as my creative point. My mom found out and I had a name for myself in the hood. Ashamed of what I put my body through, I begin to write. I wrote poetry. I always good at writing essays in classes. The way one can put words together to make a clear cut description of describing how to make a grilled cheese sandwich-would have your mouth watering as if you were stuck in a hot sand desert alone by yourself. Writing became a voice for me when I sad. Writing became the voice for me when I was happy. Writing was my life during that moment in 8th grade. Before writing I was always the kid that wanted to put on shows. For a long time I thought I was going to be a star in Broadway Theater. Well, that would have been an epic fail considering I can't sing and has to be the only black chick in the world that has no rhythm. Which is crazy to me only because my father is a DJ in Atlanta (or so people say). Like stated previously, I was always the social outkast. Therefore I think that "something" that everyone keeps referring me being an outkast. I always wanted to do more. I always wanted to be more. My family calls me a "drama queen". Well being the fact that I am creatively influenced in writing, I think it was okay that I was drama queen. People always state how much of my life I put out there on this blog. And how crazy I am. Well damn you people! This is who I am. These creative qualities in these situations that I am going through is evolving me into something extraordinary. To all my viewers out there, I hope you guys are ready for more. I'm only 24 and have a lot more life learning creative sensational situations to get through.