Jan. 25, 2016

“There is no such thing as perfect. Nobody attains perfection. But if you keep trying, you grow and evolve, and to me that’s the point: To be a better person today than I was yesterday; to become the best possible version of myself.”
—KHLOÉ KARDASHIAN

Sitting here with one foot up in a ace bandage wrap and the other on the floor. Thinking to myself how much of a stress this week this is going to be for me. I have the release of my blog video with no way of marketing it. Along with inventory count prep for my job. I'm trying to not worry myself but me having the type of personality I have, I can't. This blog video is going up for the world to see. I'm nervous. I started to wonder what else I could have done. What other scenes could have been acted out. More over, work this week is really going to be tough. Especially since I sprained my foot (or at least that's what the doctors at the ER said I did). I woke up Friday morning with my foot swollen and in pain. I rushed to the emergency room with panic. I called off work that day. I went to work for the next couple of days on one crutch and Norco. One foot up and the other one on the floor. No heels for a week. I love heels. I can't live with out them. But I guess we all gotta let some things go in life for a while that we all like. I was talking to one of my uncle's friend "TIP" for a week. To be honest, I really liked him. We are the same age with determination for goals. "TIP" was about to the top guy for me, that's until I sent a text message that money couldn't cash. That's right I sent him a very blunt text message and to my surprise, he is not that type of guy. So instead of me getting a funny sex text back, I got a "this is not going to work out" text. All I could do is say "okay" and move on. Or at this stage with this foot, hop along. One side of my wanted to lash out and say "FUCK YOU" "I'M A GREAT WOMAN". But then again, since I am growing..I kept my "I know what I'm worth" comments to myself. In the end any guy who claims they really like you but decides after one blunt text message they don't want to be "bothered" with you anymore automatically does not deserve your time. This like others came and went. Sitting here drinking a glass of wine with one foot up. But no matter what, I can always count on my best friend female friend a bottle of wine to make me come back to reality. And in reality, I'm growing. Not everything is meant to be perfect. But with time, patience, and growth everything will be just fine. So here is to us, the young women out there working and trying to catch the eye of "that one".