Dear Self.....

“But I love him”- Says every girl that’s in love with the wrong guy

Dear self, 

It’s not that I’m mad at you; I’m more disappointed in you. How could a woman like yourself get caught up in this mess? Listen, you are worth way more than what he is giving you. You placed yourself in this hole only to crawl right back out. Why? If a man truly wants to be with you for you, he will. But the simple fact is you continue to stalk and have sex with him. Giving him all of you and he only giving part of him. You shouldn’t have to worry about if he’s messing around with any other chick. That’s your problem! You too busy focusing on what someone else is doing instead of worrying about what works best for you. Besides good dick and bubble gum, what can this “man” provide for you? Is he someone you can depend on? Is he someone you can grow with? Look at you! Being an emotional wreck at work. You allowed him to suck all your positive vibes out of you. To only be left with crazy stalker-ish ways. You stalked his snap chat and he blocked you. You can’t enjoy your best friend birthday because this situation is on your mind. What happened to you? You were going in all right directions. And now…..you wake up in the middle of the night crying over him. You thought you were fighting for this “situation-ship” (because let’s be real this is not a genuine relationship). You should have known from the looks of the ghetto rachet chicks he fucks with. Time after time you was ready to step away. Every time he pulled you right back. After that whole ex fiasco, you should have walked away. Now look at you, feeling all used. You have so many good things going on right now but it’s hard for you to enjoy it all because of this situation-ship. Listen, get up and walk away from it silently. Don’t make another fuse. Get back to feeling great about you. When the right one comes you will know. Yes, it will be hard because the feelings are deeply involved. You love him and some way he loves you back. But as woman (pause); A black woman you have to hold your self to a higher standard. And some how this cloud that’s over you will soon pass over. Now black queen, go wipe tears away. Get up and get ready for work because something tells me it’s going to be a brighter day.