She Rises....

"Young lady you have three strikes against you in this world..you're young..black..and a woman"
-A convo with my Grandmother

Taking a leap of faith this week and applying for a second job. A waitress position on the weekends at a bar would be ideal. I could still work during the day. I know a second job might seem a lot for me right now but what else can I do..I need more money. Last week was all about me taking a step back and putting things in perspective. My final liberations are these: New job by the end of this year, enroll in school next year, save and invest in myself for the future. To be honest, I'm nervous about looking for another job. I haven't done this type of field work in years. I know my resume is impressive because of the amount of work I have put into my present company I work for. I spoke with "DJ" last week when I was at our mutual friend store. To him, we have a lot of things to discuss. I don't know what that means considering I was pretty tipsy and this was after boozy brunch. Apparently he wasn't speaking on the situation that occurred last week. So, I'm really confused. My best friend says he isn't the one for me. How can I be as busy as him and put more effort in this "situationship"? A question of inquiring minds that all black women would like to know. Maybe she is right. But at this point, all my focus needs to be on looking for another job. All in all through out this new leap of faith, I can't let my current job suffer. I still have to give 120% or more. Or at this rate 200%. I think me looking at my bank account everyday is pushing me to want to do better. Crazy as it might sound every time I think I can make a way or make 100 dollars stretch for a week; I always find a way. Something always happen. My friends, it's true you give blessings up and they always come back down to you. Laying here looking at the new tattoo on my arm to remind myself this one saying, "live in peace..not in pieces". And that's being young black and living.