“There are poisons that will blind you and poisons that will open your eyes”...
I haven't stopped to think about what will actually happen to my blog once I do find that someone I want to be be with, build with, and love. With “New Bae” going back to school, “Bigg” having his hands full with projects and “DJ” not even paying attention to me anymore. And let's not forget about “Him”, I don’t even wants to know where his mind is. So finally after fuck boy after fuck boy I finally decided to give “This one” a try. With “This One” it was an experiment. I wanted a guy to fall in love with my personality before we had sex. It’s crazy our personalities turn each other on. I don’t know how to feel about “This One”. I just know what I’m feeling is completely different than what I was feeling about any other guy mentioned. The mental thought of cutting off all the other guys mentioned and is just being with “This one” is weird. Not sure if i'm ready for this but then again am I? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
Had a successful girls night last week. It’s good when all my female friends come together to network and exchange ideas. Building a brand takes time. But when you have a group of friends that actually becomes a part of your team, your brand expands, and what I mentioned about time doesn’t exist. I’m constantly thinking of new marketing strategies for my blog. Love our marketing campaign we came up with for the fall. I was kind of pissed to hear that “”My Ex” was starting a podcast about relationships. Funny I was going to do the exact same thing. In the end I don’t care. May the best podcast win homie. Besides you have to be very comfortable with the person you are deep down inside to fully confess anything concerning relationships. No I’m not throwing shade i'm speaking of a true metaphor of myself. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
I don't know what to seriously think about “This one”. I did everything as a millennial woman would do. Stalk Instagram likes comments and friend list, googled his name, go through our mutual friend list on facebook. Nothing came up at all. But I did find out he ran cross country in high school and was very successful at it. As I look at the time while blogging this, I noticed his flight is about to land soon. I go through my closet to find the perfect lingerie set. I haven't gotten sexy for a guy since the last time “Bigg” And I had sex. That was the beginning of the summer. After 10 lingerie sets I found the perfect one. All black and for “This one” I might pull out the red bottoms. I'm nervous. And I wish my bestfriend was here to help me get ready. Trying the set on looking in the mirror thinking what my first words would be when I open my front door and he sees me in this. “Okay”, I tell myself. I have 2 hours to get ready. I need to eat, drink wine, take a bath, prep “her”, make up, and set the mood. I got this. No big deal. But damn! I wish I knew the flaw going in with “This One”. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
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“I missed the karma that came as a consequence”.....Jay-z Family feud
Its one of those mornings where I woke up and asked myself are you ready for more? 2017 so far has been the year for me stepping outside my comfort zone to obtain life goals. When you start achieving your goals you think differently. Things start to change. Your circle starts to change. You actually sit at a different table. Achieving my goals makes me more hungry to achieve more goals. To be honest this whole management position is scary but like I keep saying you have to feel uncomfortable in order to grow. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
Haven’t heard from “New Bae” in a week. That was until the other day I asked him if he was still coming to the concert with me. But I then forgot I also asked “Him” as well when he popped up at my job. Now I was double booked. But I made the right choice in taking “New Bae”. We was turnt. The reason why I didn’t take “Him” was simply this. I get in my feelings every time I’m with “Him”. And at this point I really don’t know where we stand. We have too much history to just be friends and not have feelings involved. But then again we have too much history to let each other go. I woke up next to “New Bae” and realized he isn’t what I want either. Besides isn’t it awkward for me to have thoughts about “Pre Bae” while having sex with “New Bae”? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
“Side note the situation above was meant for a post last month”....
I stopped blogging for a while to focus on my direction with this blog. Yes what I write might seem interesting but it came to the point where I questioned why am I doing this? What is the purpose? Are my marketing materials adding value to my blog or degrading to my pockets? These are questions that need answers ASAP! I’m building a brand but what is the meaning to this brand?
Lately communication has been my biggest problem. Not with guys or anything but with my family and close friends. I have learned when it comes to these types of relationships to sit back and let the problems resolve themselves. I say what I have to say, but family is family and no matter how much we argue and fight we will always be there for each other. I have been thinking about my best friend lately. Don’t like the fact how our words let us be on bad terms. But the text she sent me re-ensured our friendship. Hopefully things can go the exact same way with my mom, my little sister, and I.. Like I said family is family. But I have to learn when to walk away for a min. And that’s what I’m doing walking away. How can I learn how to build a family if I’m consistently having issues? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
More than just a blogger is what she calls herself. Tatiana at the current age of 26 has built a blog based on her life. She touches on juggling love relationships, dating, family, and a successful career. Trying to find the common ground balance of them of all, she finds herself in sticky situations every time. Although she is learning to see the brighter side of things and holding herself accountable of her life, Tatiana is hoping her growth in her 20s will leave a powerful impact amongst other young women out there.