Fun Girl: “A girl that is typically somewhat attractive that men like to have fun with but never intend on marrying”.
So here we are. A whole 20 days later after my last blog. I feel there is so much to catch everyone up on. First and foremost I am excited that I have officially started a brand (like actually on paper contracts and all) and my first event is fully set in place. It seems after my breakdown, all things are starting to become a little more clearer. And for the first time in a long time, I am starting to know what I don’t want and what I do want, and how to deal with what I have now. I guess you can say “This One” was right, I need to slow down and take some time for myself in the midst of two jobs. So I told myself on my off day, I want no one else around. Just me, myself, and I and my tv and snacks. I can not wait for the holidays to be over with. This is the last and final stretch of the year so why not make it the best.
I was kind of surprised when “This One” gave me my christmas gift. Not because of what he gave me but in all honesty he is the first guy to actually give me an Christmas gift. “My Ex” never gave me anything because he always believed gifts should not be given just on holidays but every day. But truth be told he was just broke. I can tell with “This One” and I there is something there that wasn’t before. And no matter how many times I can try to have sex with another guy, the guiltiness always comes to mind and then I don’t follow through with it. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
I started to talking with one of my coworkers at my second gig. Needless to say, it's really just sexual tension amongst us. While at work, we make every chance we get. Like others, he has been to my bar a couple of times but never to my crib. Today was the day I decided not to look at him in that way anymore. Why? Because he told me that he does have someone else he is interested in besides me. He told me how they have history and was thinking about a relationship. I took that as a key sign for me to get out. Besides who really wants to shit where they eat at? Especially at that company! Another guy I was talking to went emotionally crazy over me. And talked about how we had selfish sex and how I felt comfortable inviting him in my bed. Little does he know how many other dudes beside him has been in my bed! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
I get mixed signals from the universe when it comes to “This One”. Why did he buy me that christmas gift (and it actually being something I wanted)? Why does he keep talking to me after each of my drunk episodes? Am I the only one he talks to? What does he actually think of me? Does he truly deep down want to be with me? Am I just a fun girl for all these dudes I am talking to? I guess the only way to overcome my guiltiness fear to actually try to have sex with someone else. So I called up “DJ” and demanded him to come over. After all “My Love” is coming out here this weekend for New Years Eve. And knowing him, I better not have no fear in fucking him. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
More than just a blogger is what she calls herself. Tatiana at the current age of 26 has built a blog based on her life. She touches on juggling love relationships, dating, family, and a successful career. Trying to find the common ground balance of them of all, she finds herself in sticky situations every time. Although she is learning to see the brighter side of things and holding herself accountable of her life, Tatiana is hoping her growth in her 20s will leave a powerful impact amongst other young women out there.