#AdIamondintherough

“Everybody gon respect the shooter but the one in front of the gun lives matter”...Some random girl on facebook post

So I’m dropping the case. It’s not worth it and according to my lawyer this is one that I’m not going to win. So once again I put on my big girl hat and moved on with life. I’m letting that, be the past of me. In the future, I know exactly how to handle it, but hopefully there won’t be a next time. I received an email from my bar manager asking me to come in for this meeting. I was nervous, sweaty and wanted to throw up. Is this what I think it is? Is this the opportunity I have been working so hard for? And by 4pm I got the news! It’s all starting to be pay off now. I will be officially joining the bar management team. I am excited, nervous, and scared. But like I said before, we all have to be a little uncomfortable in order to grow. And what some people might call my “twisted ways” of leaving a corporate job and going after my dreams, I call a “diamond in the rough”.

It never fails to amazes me. When my career is going well, my love life sucks. It’s all jungling act if you ask me. I am not interested in seeing anyone serious. So I got back on Tinder only to discover I really don’t want to waste my time with any new guy right now. I still have some guys in court besides “DJ” like “Bigg” and oh yea “New Bae”. And even though “New Bae” is only out here for the summer, I can get use to him coming over and keeping me company. I gave up the “Football player” and the “Special Kind of Guy”. They weren’t my type but the sex was good. The “Football Player” never has time for me. And the “Special Kind of Guy” reminds me of the “Other Guy” which reminds me of “My Ex”. So in that sense, I’m good. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

I saw “Bigg” at the new store. I was drunk and barely remember being there. He gave me a hug and all my wetness came back at that moment. That’s what I do remember. I feel like everything is happening all at once and too fast: Me getting the promotion, new budget plan for this blog, interviews, my little sister going to Spelman, and me actually having somewhat of a branding manager. I really thought 2017 was going to be a rough year for me. But it’s not. It’s simply teaching me how to be an adult. Some situations I had to go through to learn from in order to grow from. Now look at me! Working on credit paying debit, trying to get my credit score back up. All this and plus the new budget plan for my blog. How can I be financially stable all over again? Thinking about all this, I had anxiety attack while on top of “New Bae”. I quickly got off and told him I need a minute. I ran into the bathroom and calmed myself down. I laid down next to him and told him I need ten minutes. He rubbed back as if he knew what was going on with me and gave me some water. 20 minutes later, I was back in action. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.