Definition of table
: a piece of furniture consisting of a smooth flat slab fixed on legs
b (1) : a group of people assembled at or as if at a table
(2) : a legislative or negotiating session
(2) : an act or instance of assembling to eat : meal
I am officially done with retail yet once again. I got another job at a brand new bar with a club like atmosphere just like I wanted. It’s crazy when I thought was on the verge of getting deeper into my depression, I get something I wanted. It feels good to know that I will be working in three different bars but will have two consistent days off in a row. I will be basically making my own schedule which is something I like versus waiting on waiting on different job schedules not knowing if I will actually have an off day or not. My mind is little more at ease, and once I start doing bottle service, my mind will be even more at ease. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
My career is finally getting back on track can’t say the same thing about my love life. It’s not one guy that can hold my interest at this point. And maybe it’s because of the depression. I haven’t heard from “My Love” in two months. Not surprised honestly. It’s been the same thing for eleven years. We get back on good terms for a couple of months then he goes ghost on me. And when I finally do talk back to him, he is in a whole relationship. It’s okay; I fell for it again. Time to move on officially. Went to the Happy Place with “This One.” I thought he was going to agree to come up and cuddle and finish talking, but he declined. At this point, I’m ready to throw in the towel. I’m not hanging out with someone who makes me question my worth as a woman or has me looking in the mirror thinking, “what’s wrong with me?” “Why doesn’t he like me like that?” At this point it’s toxic. And I’ve had enough of toxic relationships in my life. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
It’s like I been saying, “you gotta know when to leave the table when you are no longer being served.” I left retail because I didn’t have the passion for it anymore. And corporate life isn’t for me and my personality. And though sometimes I may get a little anxiety talking to tables, after that first greeting I’m golden. If the things aren’t going anywhere between “This One” and I then it’s time for me to leave the situationship where it is. Looking at the expensive vibrator, he brought me for Christmas contemplating if I should throw it away or not. Remembering the reason why I stopped using it because I use to always think of him. When I told him I don’t use it anymore, he said, “let me know when you miss it.” I’m sorry sir but did I not invite you upstairs to cuddle which is an open invitation for sex. And after a year of sitting at this table, the dick is no longer being served. Friendship is okay but can you honestly have a friendship with someone you thought you could see yourself long terms with? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.