#Happinesspart2

“I’m not here to suck on anybody’s dick. Sorry I got my own shit to worry about”.
-2am Thoughts

​When I left corporate, I wanted to be in an industry where I can be myself. And I found that being in the bar life. Yes, like any industry you have ups and downs. The most important factor is to always remember not to lose yourself in the money. Meaning being happy in whatever establishment you decide to work in. You being happy equals better tips and more money. But you have to be satisfied and enjoy the environment that you are in. I have already established that I am not fine dinning material. Not that I can’t be. I just don’t want to be. Call it me being stuck in my ways, but I enjoy the simple menus and fast, quick, tasteful cocktails. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

As baseball season starts to dwindle down, I have to think of my next steps. Ideally, I would like to work at three different bars. Three different clienteles, three different environments, three different ways I can make money. Three different bars five days out the week. Maybe if I feel up to it, I can pick up an extra shift or two on my off days. As of now, I’m in control of my money. I dictate which establishments have certain days. It’s all about having some type of control in my life so I can focus on my brand. When I was working at a bar and corporate, I felt I had no control over my life. I was working 7 days out the week and didn’t have any time to myself. And we all need that “time to ourselves.” Time to regroup, meditate, shed off the energy and vibes from others especially working in a customer service face to face industry. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

I told myself the rest of these months in 2018 will be to set myself up for 2019. I have bigger dreams and bigger goals. It sucks some days not having a companion. But I have some sort of peace of mind when it comes to dating and not worry about if he's out there fucking another chick or not. Like the fantastic actress, Eartha says, “A relationship is a relationship that has to be earned not to compromise for.” “I fell in love with myself, and I want someone to share me with me.” See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.