“Not everyone is meant to join your journey”
-Drunken Monday Night thoughts….
It’s finally over! And I did it! Prior to turning 27 I planned and executed an event that would change my blog for the better. And I must admit people, it was a lot of stress, and sleepless nights. But at least my anxiety didn’t get in the way of it all. It was fun and I made sure the people there had a great time. Even though there were some minor hiccups in the mix, my team and I still pulled it off. I was kind of upset that my best male friend didn’t fly in for it. He would have made sure those hiccups were cleared and would have taken care of them. But I am the more grateful that he made my vision with all my graphics designs come to life. Like my other male friend said, this event is going to make me grow a lot more. And by the end of it, I am going to look at life, relationships, and partnerships in a different perspective. He was right! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
One person I am surprised at that stayed by side was “My Love”. He came in from Indianapolis and calmed me down that morning. He made sure I was straight. Another one I am surprised at is “The Young Boy”. I had him working at the event at the last minute. But he showed up and supported me all the way. You would think with those two at my event as well two other guys I am talking to, I would be in a world of trouble. But I wasn’t. And as a thank you I made them all take shots together with me. I worked the crowd and danced with each of them. None of them said anything but I think “The Young Boy” peeped “My Love” and I leaving. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
The next day “My Love” and I decided it was finally time to have “that talk”. You know that “what are we doing talk”. According to him I am indecisive in choosing men and that I never come visit him. So later that night I booked a train ticket to go see him in a couple of weeks. Could this be the relationship I need? A long distance relationship? The night before my birthday I went out and had one too many drinks with a friend. I called “The Young Boy” and i’m guessing I spilled all my feelings out for him. I don’t remember what I said but he was more confused than mad at me. That morning “This One” took me to work. I told about my event and “My Love”. We kissed when I was getting out the car but when I reached over to give him another one he pulled back. I guess that was a one time thing. Later that night I thought “The Young Boy” was going to come over but after giving me the run around spill, I snapped. I told him I felt like I was begging and I’m not that type of woman. He replied, “okay then”. I came home and went to sleep. The next day at work, I ignored the shit out of him. Looks like he still has a lot of growing up to do. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
I’m officially 27. I remember when my mom was this age. She was always going out to the clubs. The young me thought I was going to be the same. But instead here I am blogging and trying to figure out my next event to plan. I told myself I was not going to make any career changing moves until May or June. I still have to weigh out my options when it comes to working at the bar or going back to the corporate environment fully. Moreover I am proud of myself. I accomplished my first big goal of the year. But like I always say, when my career flourishes my love life sucks. And since I am becoming more in the spotlight, it sucks even more. I want to call “The Young Boy” and tell him the reason why I am upset but then again, would it even matter? Like with “This One” shit is getting real and when shit gets real the fun stops. Our fun is stopping. And even though I don’t want it to end because I see the full potential man that he could be. But maybe he is not meant for this journey with me yet. He still has a lot of growing to do. It's like the same thing “My Love” said to me a couple of years ago, “Once you as a person become ready then we will be ready”. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.