“Focus on what’s important to you...You will be amazed by the results”...
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With football season finally here my main focus is learning how to be an effective bar manager, paying off debt, and working on marketing collateral for this blog. My time will become very stingy as I enter the life of working non-stop doubles whenever I can. Who knows might even get a part-time job for the holiday season. No more fuck ups with money for the rest of the year. It's time to really start saving and more investing into myself. I turn 27 next year and I plan to have a lot more stability in life by then. See the irony in this. All the more reasons why not to date her.
When it came to time to cut everyone off for “This One”. I did, with no hesitation. Sex was great vibe is all there. And spending time with each other is never a question. I took him to this day party where I knew everyone including “Bigg” and “DJ” would be there. Luckily “DJ” was out of town at a show that weekend. But “Bigg” was there. While moving through the crowd to the bar, I stopped and gave “Bigg” a hug. But yet our chemistry got the best of us. He started kissing on my neck. Lucky enough a friend was behind me and someone how “This One” got caught in the mix of the crowd so he didn’t see it. Well i’m hoping he didn’t. After all he never mentioned it to me. That was the same exact day I posted a video of “This One” and I making out on snapchat. At that point I knew my phone was going to blow up. And it did. I didn’t care though. Why? Because he makes me happy. And when in a relationship happiness is all that counts.
I can honestly say I’m feeling this “This One”. Like every millennial woman, I still have my doubts. So I asked him the other night during our Netflix and Chill time was he still talking to the same two woman before me. He said. “Yes”. I asked him was he going to have sex them with again. He said “Yes”. At that moment people the crazy tatiana wanted to come out in range. But she didn’t. I asked him how would he feel if I called “DJ” over tomorrow knowing that he use to have a key. He said, “you wouldn’t do that because you are mine”. People what have I gotten myself into? Is this a joke or some sort? Am I crazy right now? However, I did get a call from “Him” telling me he was at my apartment. He stayed the night. We cuddled but didn’t have sex. But I did feel kind of odd that I didn’t change my sheets. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.
I usually put any relationship drama energy into work. It helps me to not think about it all. But with situation between “This One” and the fact that mom called me not to apologize about what happened in Atlanta but to tell me to stop crying to my Aunt about it has me all frustrated. I literally want to be done with the world and go somewhere and hide. It's 1:30 and I have to be at the bar at 4pm. I haven’t talked to “This One” since yesterday at 5pm. Is he with another girl? He is okay? Why is not returning my phone calls? We have a date set up for tomorrow. All in all I really want him to tell me he was joking with me Friday and I am the only one. All this running through my mind brings up the same question I had with “Him” and “My Ex”; why am I not enough? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.