March 13th, 2019

“Once you know what you want, do something about it every day”

Gonna keep this one short and sweet!

Well, damn people! I made it stage 28 in life. I can genuinely say I’m happy with my career. It’s funny how life sets you up. I went from corporate to bartending/managing and now taking on the role as coordinator of events and managing at the club is where I wanted to be in life. And even at 28, there are still characteristics of myself that I want to change. After my birthday hiatus and being hungover for 2 days, I decided to give alcohol a break. Not a week or two but forty days and forty nights. This is the spiritual cleanse that I may need and is something that I have wanted to challenge myself to do for a very long time. At 28, I want to challenge myself to push myself more into the things I want to see done in my future. And for this blog, this is going to be the most challenging step yet this year. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

I told myself I was done with “This skin fella” and after my last post, I thought for sure we were done. I can’t lie and say I don’t have a soft spot in my heart for him because, in reality, I do. Some days, I’m like “OMG” I really like him. And then it’s other days where I think about other guys who I have dated or currently dating and see what their expectations of dating are vs. what we have going on. And I think to myself well maybe he is going to change. But as a woman, I know a guy will never change for a female. If he is going to change then, he will do it on his own. And that’s just that. So now I’m sitting here thinking is this a waste of “our” time. We had a recent fall out where he even questioned us. If  I would have known him and his ex recently broke up in November and not August I probably would not be all in my feelings over him. As of a matter of fact, I would be still sending him off. I know I am a handful and tend to think with my emotions. Again, a characteristic of myself at age 28 that I need to change. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

I went to sleep last night with just wanting to sleep. Didn’t even think about him not laying next to me. I just wanted to sleep. Earlier yesterday I went to the gym. I felt relieved. I forgot how the gym can be very therapeutic for a soul like myself. I have a lot of creative juices that are flowing right now. WOW! What a perfect time but to focus. Guys always ask me what else is that I do besides working at the bar. I tell them, “I am a blogger. I blog about my life and relationships. Don’t date me you may end up as material.” They laugh until they read it and see how serious I am.  See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.