#october5th2018

“We all have story to tell. Its just the way you go about doing it. ”. -2 am Thoughts
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A lot has changed in the past month. Basically, it was my cleaning up house month. Cubs season is officially over. I’m moving to a different apartment soon. I made a life-changing decision for my body and health. I’m deciding which bar I would like to continue the rest of the year at. And I am officially done with “This One.” There were a couple of days where I found myself stressing over my choices. But then I thought to myself, these are not bad things to stress about. These are good things. At times you might to have to take a couple of steps back to put you right where you need to be in the future. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

As a woman, you should always listen to your intuition. And my intuition about “This One” was clear. For the third time, he has wasted my time. I knew he was dating but didn’t know he was a serious committed relationship. All it took was a lie and a scenario and boom! I caught him up. I told him that I met a girl who claimed they were in a relationship together. I even described how the girl looked. He said, “impossible because the girl that I’m with was with me last night.” Before you knew it, all hell broke loose on my end. I’m not upset at the fact that he is in a relationship. I’m more upset at the point he didn’t tell me. They have been together for 3 months. But we have hung out in those three months. As much as I don’t want to believe, this situation-ship was tonic too. I wasn’t strong enough to say no in certain instances thus him assuming that I would be okay with him having his cake and eating it too. I was sad for a bit, but like others, I will get over him as well. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

Of course, I moved on someone else. Someone is who is my type, “Renaissance Man.” I met “Renaissance Man” during a shift at the club. We went out for a cocktail at 2 am. I liked our conversation, I liked him. He was my total package deal, and he lived four buildings down from me. I decided to see go him one Sunday after work. I also decided to drink a lot on Sunday after work. I was horny, still hurt from “This One” and was ready! I slightly blacked out and apparently told him, “I charge for sex but I not gonna charge you.” Two days later I texted him and told him we should be friends he didn’t agree, but it's for the best. For the rest of this year, I’m going to stick to the dudes that I do know and that includes fucking around with “DJ” once again. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

I’m happy to be surrounded by black women in power again. At the company I use to work, my operations manager was a black woman.  At the club, both of my managers are black women. It’s a difference working for black women because they genuinely see the potential in you and gives you extra gems in life to succeed in that industry. I love working in the bar/service industry. And not a lot of people can say they actually enjoy what they do. I was having dinner with one of my best friends, and she also loves the work she does, and that’s the only reason why she is still with her company. But we know how to make money, we know how to run operations, why aren’t we out trying to own something? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.