#FirstSnowfall

“Sometimes you have to meet people where they at, At the same time honor your boundaries”.
​-GLC the Ism

I have to admit my energy has been all over the place lately. And today I’m in one strange mood. I always get like this when my finances aren’t in the right order. I wish I would have taken another bar gig when I had them on the table. Now, look at me, wondering how can I get another bar gig. If I should even get another bar gig? Should I go back into retail? All of this plus my vivid dreams of guys that I have dated in my past. What does this mean? Me being the curious thing I am, I googled it. I don’t miss any of my ex's personally, but in some ways, I do miss the way they all treated me. But I would never go back not even to “This One.” See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

I lied when I said I didn’t want to date anymore for the rest of 2018. So here goes to the first guy I started dating after “This one” and after “DJ.” Ladies and Gents meet “The Promoter.” Now I didn’t want to date anyone in the industry, but he gets me. He understands that I have might have to get my booty rubbed on to get that extra $100 tip while doing bottle service. He understands the grind the hustle I put into working within the service industry.
Moreover when I complain I about my job, he always turns it into a positive and makes me see the bigger picture. But the fact that he wants to now slow down on spending time together because he needs to get his life in order makes me feel a way. Even though after our first date how I expressed to him maybe we should just be friends. When it comes down to it, all it took was a simple face to face conversation, some great makeup sex, and for him to tell me that right now I’m number 1. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

Besides the promoter, there is also “The Jamaican.” After my last altercations with a Jamaican and Haitian in New York, I stopped dating any West Indie people. Until he changes his perspective on my career choice, I could never see myself long-term with him. The sex is amazing, but I will continue only to date him. Had my second experience with a football player. He stood me up on our first date because I told him that I didn’t want to have sex with him on the first night. Unless you are throwing money, my answer will be no. I didn’t even fuck “The Jamaican” or “The Promoter” on the first night. But I did have to tell another guy that I don’t suck dick because the sex was wack only to make him leave. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.

After getting that strange letter in the mail regarding my trademark, It’s time for me to buckle down and focus. Had a great event planning session and proud to say, my next event will be December 9th. Everything happens for a reason. I like the bar/club that I am working at because of the connections I am making. Even though the money isn’t always there, I will continue to stay. Had the pleasure of serving some great Athletics, Rappers, Actors, and Actresses. I know how to network and will always stand behind, “Your network is your net worth.” Like my homie, GLC told me, “Shine baby. Patience is a virtue”. And honestly, I don’t have a choice but to let this little light of mine shine. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.