May 8th.....

“In life no one can you make you happy other than you”
-Girl Boss

​Successfully completed my first week as a full timer at the bar. I was surprised how much money I made in tips. I think this is a sign to great decision I made. My mom still is on the fence about me quitting TC. But at this point my happiness is all that counts. Still can’t believe that after working for years for that company, I made the choice to leave. It doesn’t seem real. On my last day, I cried. Not because I was sad, but because I was happy for myself and my coworkers were happy for me as well. I took some time off from my blog to focus on working at the bar. I canceled all my meetings I had for my blog just to have more time to relax to myself. I’ve never had so much free time on my hands during the day that I don’t know what to do anymore. Do I catch up on shows that I’ve missed? Do I spring clean my apartment? Do I say “fuck it” and sleep all damn day? These are the questions that I am still seeking answers to. 

As my career life strengthens, my love life still sucks. Not to mention how crazy my hormones were raging this past week. This is the part when I begin to hate how many guys I have curved for the “Other Guy”. How my “Hood Nigga” is an actual hood nigga and I often times I really don’t want him to know where I live. After hitting up the “Other Guy”, my “Hood Nigga”, and even “King” all for some sex and no one answered for me; I wanted to go on a wild rampage but didn’t. Instead I deleted their numbers. I’m done. I don’t like to chase. If I feel as if I have to chase you, then I don’t want you. I guess you can say I’m a little selfish when it comes this topic. But I don’t care. None of them are trying to build with me, so why not use them for what I want? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

Still in shock about the amount of money I made in one week at the bar. I had a set goal and hit more than what I expected. Still thinking about getting another job just so I can stay busy and also have more money to invest in this blog. But down the fall of that is I won’t have enough time for the blog or family. Especially since my great grandmother is sick and my little sister is graduating high school. Besides all that, my best friend moved in with me until she moves to Houston next month. I think the one thing that I missed the most when I was working both jobs is spending my time doing absolutely nothing. My off days were never off days. So days like today where I’m off and officially have nothing to do or like Thursday where I have the entire morning to myself will be strange. Sometimes you have to stop to enjoy the world and the people that’s in it. That’s just life. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.