January 06th, 2021

 “2021 is going to pay for my creativity” -2 AM Thoughts 

This is my first new year's eve not working at a bar and not going out to party. Tonight is the first night in a couple of months where I have time to sit, be still, and be to myself, and do absolutely nothing but write. You wouldn't believe it, people, but my book took every little thing out of me. And while working two jobs, I was long overdue for a nice bubble bath, some manifestation sayings, and a glass of wine. I found myself mentally tired and too exhausted. 

This year, I have learned three things: 
1. You are not going to get the closure or the explanation you think you deserve. 
2. Sometimes you have to accept something for what it is and move on. 
3. Everything really does happen for a reason. 

At the beginning of 2020, I was this frustrated person who didn't know what route to take in my life. I had a lot of opportunities as far as jobs but nothing career-wise. Covid hit the US, and although it broke my industry, it opened an immense opportunity for me in the cannabis world. It also forced me to take my blog during the quarantine and turn it into an actual business. I took all the necessary steps to rebuild the brand and structure it into a real business. Thus far leading me to publish my first book. I sought out therapy because I was broken as a woman and needed help healing. And even though none of my relationships worked out with any of the men, I dated in 2020, at least they can never say I wasn't an AINT SHIT AS WOMAN! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

“Six Months of focus and hustle can change your life forever”- Instagram Meme

When I was little, I always told people that I would be a superstar of some sort. I could make it BroadWay. The little girl with the deep raspy voice who loved barbies, wearing purses, and with a big imagination is living out her dreams. If there were a thing I would tell my younger self is, never stop being you; unique and different. That is what is going to take us far in life. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

“Best revenge is to boss up physically, mentally, and financially”-Convo with the girls 

​So here we are, friends, fifteen minutes to midnight! And I am walking into 2021 with more confidence as a woman ever. A Bald head, Bad-ass bitch! A writer, an author, and a business owner. A woman with amazing friends, family, coworkers all rooting for me! And the first time in a long. I am happy! Cheers to 2021! May every lesson be an immense blessing, and let no locked doors stop the show! Keep on pushing! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her!