#ShirleyValentine

"All of your hard work will soon pay off. Just keep pushing!"
- Late Night Uber Ride Thoughts

It's like this friends, I don't know where to begin with this blog post. All I know is, I'm TIRED! I wouldn't say mentally tired, but physically I am tired. It's been a lot going on lately with me as far as my career goes, so let me bring you guys up to speed. If you know personally, then you know I always keep another job on deck. So with indoor dining opening back up, you know ya girl had to go back in the service industry. I took on the role of acting Bar Manager for a new restaurant concept. With my book being out, it just makes more sense. I love both of the industries I'm in. It just gets tough sometimes trying to have a work-life balance with my own brand. My off days aren't my off days anymore. My off days are for creating content and building out more for this blog, this brand, my little "Black Owned Business." See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

"Don't Disturb me if you aren't ready for me. I'm a whole ass blessing, not a fling". 
-Some Instagram Meme

It was the charismatic charm, good morning everyday text, gun on the coffee table, me grinding on top of while he tonguing me down, feeding him tacos, and making Don Julio Anejo margaritas. It was his westside dangerous lifestyle that made me want to open my legs up to him. But I didn't. Instead, here we are, blocking each other on social media and me wanting to knock his head off in the club. My "Scammer Bae." He was something different from what I was used to, which made me attracted to him. That is also what made me say, "Nah, I'm cool on you." And maybe me coming to crib drunk one night is what made him say, "He is cool on me too." Who knows! All I know is I got a lot of shit going on, and I refuse to be blindsided by someone who can't see "The Goddess" in me. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

"Enjoy yourself; that's what your 20's are for. Your 30's are to learn the lessons, and your 40's are to pay for the drinks". 
- Carey Bradshaw Sex and The City 

Well, I'd be damned! I'm turning 30 next week. I'm having a lot of anxiety about it. Maybe the thoughts of not knowing what to expect when I turn 30. Perhaps it's the thought of me not achieving everything I wanted to accomplish in my 20's. I had a small conversation with a co-worker, expressing to him how I felt about turning 30. He said, "T, from the outside looking in, you have accomplished a lot. More than others. Take this time to be excited about turning 30. Think of it as your new chapter in life. Go into your 30th year knowing you already have a head start on everything you want to accomplish. Stop holding back! Go in and Go crazy! Be more ferocious! And to be honest, the photoshoot I just did proved it all. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. 

"It's like Tiffany's. And nothing bad can ever happen at Tiffany's". 
-Breakfast at Tiffany's

Even though I'm working like crazy, things didn't turn out quite like I expected with "Scammer Bae" and given an anxious feeling turning 30, I have to make sure I'm on Shirley Valentine flow. Meaning no matter what obstacles life may throw at me when it comes to relationships and dealing with people as a whole, I must keep going. In the end, when I finally do reach my destination, maybe my husband will come to find me. And when he does, perhaps he won't recognize me. Because by then, I will have become the ferocious woman I am in my 30's. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.