 Just a perspective on my life right now. There is a deeper side of me besides the men I date. These are challenges that I face on a day to day basis. Hoping this inspires the next person. Just know you are not alone in this…..
Some days I’m fine I can cope with the world. I feel like everything is going to be okay. I’m pushing through all the obstacles in my life. I’m not worried or stressed about anything because I know everything will turn out in my favor. Then its days like today, where I wake up and feel everything is a horrible dream. How am I going to make it through this month or next? I went on countless job interviews but no one is calling me back. I don’t want to be around anyone. I just want to lay in bed and be by myself. I’m more to myself than I ever was before. I know I have to keep moving because that is the only way to survive through this depression. But damn, all I can think about is “when will it be my time”. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. It’s kinda hard when you are on both sides of the fence when it comes to this protest today. One part of me thinks this is going to suck because I’m not going to make money but the other part of me understands why this is taking place and the area its taking place in. I can’t say I’m not nervous about today. And I always think about what if I encounter the wrong table that is more outspoken. I can tell when a table doesn’t want me as their server. But I’m always polite and go the extra mile. What if today is that day I do encounter the outspoken table. I logged off facebook because of the comments pertaining the protest. One person even commented how he will be standing on the sideline with water balloons filled with kitty litter and water. And what’s sad is I might have to serve these people today. Lately, I’m having “eye opening days”. And today was my “eye opening day” about the world. Everyone around me keeps reassuring that I will be okay. But will I really be okay? See the irony in this all the more reasons why not to date her.
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 “Think I’m truly over the friends with benefits stage in my life”
-My 1am Thoughts Finally going back to work after being off for the week. Being off for a week kind of put some things in perspective and I was able to go on a couple of job interviews. Praying and staying positive that something will fall through. But for now, it’s all about budgeting and maintaining the main bills. I’m still trying to figure out how to finance this next event. Those thoughts always make me want to sign up for an online site geared towards sugar babies. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. Spending this time off work has given me a lot of alone time. I started to think about dating and the people whom I attract. They all want something sexual from me and to hang out from time to time but none of them actually want to be in a serious relationship with me. How do I get them to see that I’m more than just a “fun girl”. I have said this before, “Date me with a purpose”. And now that I am on this whole weight loss peaceful mindset journey, this is the right time for me to practice what I preach. Last night I received five different phones/texts from guys that I mess around with. I choose to ignore, masturbate, go to sleep and woke up the next day to go to the gym. This was all after meditating. So maybe that's what I need to do. I have never felt so balanced after that. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. Deep down I was honestly using sex as a way for a guy to validate if I’m attractive or not. But after being on these job interviews and seeing how energy glows, I don’t need it. I ‘m a very sexual person. But I can't keep running around giving it up to every guy that comes along pretends that he is charming and has a big dick. As a young black independent woman, I have to want more than that. One thing I’ve noticed is how protective I was at the gym today of my shoulder. Even when I was the on the bus I held onto the rails very tight because of the fear of trying to brace myself if I fall. Why is it so hard for me as a woman to be that protective of my energy and time when it comes to men? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “Good things comes to those who wait”.....-Unknown Person
So it wouldn't be life if I didn't have another major event to happen to me. I dislocated my shoulder and had to call off work for a whole entire week. I cried, screamed, and wanted to pass out. "WHAT THE FUCK!", I thought. How could this be happening? I thought I was on a roll with my life. Doing new things. Working two jobs again. But everything happens for a reason. And whatever this reason is, def has me sitting at home rethinking my life decisions. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. When men are sat in their ways, there is no trying to change them. They may change how they do things with you or towards you but their character will stay the same. And at that moment you gotta realize when to step away or stay. But if you stay you risk wasting your time. Like I said, this week has me re-thinking some life decisions. I think it's time for me to completely break it off with "My Love". After 11 years, he will never change. After 11 years I'm still not the only one. The whole phrase, "I'm good luv enjoy" came out last night in a text after asking who he was going out of town with. Say I'm overreacting if you want to. But ladies let's be real, if he wasn't going out of town with a female then he would have answered the question instead of being argumentative. Here I am in between jobs and with a fractured shoulder and he goes out of town with another female. But then I should have known when he ex-baby mama asked him to pay her rent. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. Chicago men are interesting. Yesterday I was walking home from the hair shop. Had my arm in a sling. Minding my own business, I hear "I would fuck the shit out of you with that broken arm shorty".If I wasn't in a crippled state of mind, I would’ve ran. Went out for tacos on Monday with "This One". Nothing sexual happened. But I do miss spending time with him. My best friend asked me would I ever consider going back into a situation-ship with him. And to be honest people, I would but not right now. He is still in the process of trying to find a condo to buy and me, I'm still in between jobs. We both are not ready yet. But I do still masturbate to the thought of him and I having very nasty disrespectful sex. Maybe one we will have a conversation about the future with us but until then I will value our friendship more than anything. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. Besides dating, my financial stability also gives me anxiety. And it’s because of the industry I work in. One week you can make over 2,000 and the next you may make only 300. I like working in the industry because I like connecting with people and never know who you may meet. I don't want to work two jobs right now. But if I had to, I wouldn't mind working at two different bars. So here I am stuck between my vision for my life, my goals, and my financial freedom. The best advice that was given to me this week was from my hair stylist. She said, "Tati don't let your pride get in the way of your money". As a black independent young woman, I have hella PRIDE! But if I want work for myself by the time I'm 30, then I have to make a step back. So I am finishing this post up. Getting ready for an interview with a fractured shoulder and a small chat with my old GM. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “Fear has a way of paralyzing your decision to execute because of what we think of ourselves”.- Blogger Mattie James
Ladies if you really want to know how a guy feels about you, tell him you’re pregnant and watch his response. Will his response be “okay let's figure this out”. Or, will his response be “Damn!” “Wow”. I guess you can say the “Young Boy’s” response to this was neither. Instead he lashed out exclaiming how he didn’t want a kid by me. At that moment he was officially known as “A BITCH ASS NIGGA!”. Explaining to him back and forth how this is all not my fault (it takes two). And even after telling him I didn’t want to keep it. His actions proved he is not ready for me. I am 27 years old. I have a life, dreams, goals, and bills. I declined the money for him to give me for the abortion. Hell! I will figure this out on my own just like how I always do. Anxiety, depression, and now if only this was true! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. If it’s not one thing it’s another. I walked for the first time in my life. I was given the “opportunity” by my GM to walk out at that moment in the middle of my shift. I did exactly what he said to do, “run my check out”. I couldn’t believe it. All in shock. Tears ran down my face. “This is really happening”, I thought over and over again. I woke up the next day thinking what I could have done to avoid this. Be the calm to the storm and pulled back on my attitude as a black woman? Be the voice to the reasoning and say, “can we talk about this another time we are super busy”? Or just sat there and had no voice to what was being yelled. And even walked away. Everyone keeps telling me how if didn’t happen now, it was bound to happen in the future. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe bar management isn’t my thing. Or maybe I needed a change at that moment and the universe decided this would be my moment of change. Deep inside this feels like a bad break up. Deep inside I want to go back. But I was comfortable there. And we all know in order to grow, you have become uncomfortable. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. (I’m not the type of person to talk openly about my relationship with God. But whatever here it goes). I saw two post today from a pastor randomly on my Facebook timeline. One was titled “marked”. In this post he talked how sometimes god will use you as a mark. You might become an answer to a problem. Meaning just be patient work on your craft, and things will come to you. Another post was titled “Does “IT” need to end. In this post he talked how a wood doesn’t sharpen a saw but how it makes it dull. Meaning certain relationships have to end because its not making an impact in your life. Crazy as it sounds,both of these popped up when I wanted to cry about my job situation. But then I took a minute to think. I already had another job lined up at another bar for the summer. My work skills alone stood so impressive that when I asked my manager at the clothing store if I could stay a little longer after only having day left in my two weeks notice. I wanted one job that could focus on brand more. I wanted to get out there and see what other bars I could get into. It’s the fear of not finding a bar that I could stay at year round and make decent money. It’s the fear of not having enough finances to progress my brand. It’s the fear of coming into another establishment and not being the one in charge. It’s the fear of, “you’re pushing 30, so you need to figure it out”. It’s the fear of change. It’s the fear of letting go and trusting god. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I keep telling myself we are going to take this one day at time. I can’t change what has happened in the past. It’s best for me to move forward. I keep saying how this feels like a bad break up. It’s the exact same feeling I had when “My Ex” and I moved out. I was scared. Didn’t know what to do. Didn’t have a plan. I worked and it got me exactly where I needed to be. It brought out that crafty side of me. After all that break up did help to build this blog. So here is my second bad break up. I love you for you who you and everything you have done for me. Maybe one day we can be different and have closure. But until then..cheers! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “How can you expect for someone else to make you happy, if you yourself don’t know what makes you happy?” -Gabrielle Union
Had a small conversation with myself this morning after looking at countless women empowerment videos yesterday. “Am I truly healed from my past situationships?”. For example, my relationship with “My Ex”. Am I truly healed from it? And all honesty when you are healing, you become okay with being by yourself. I had to be honestly say no, I’m still trying to find the means of being okay by myself. I have a tendency to use work a distraction from what I may be going through in my life. And that’s kind of the reason why I always two jobs. I can wrap myself up in work and not to think about what’s really going on in my life. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I’m one of those random ass females. I will ask you a random question regardless if it makes you uncomfortable. The best way to find out some shit is asking questions. So I asked every guy that I have been dealing within the past couple of months, “What is somethings that I do or have done that turns you off”. Pretty much every guy was shocked but was completely honest with me. The only one that didn’t answer my question was “This One”. He sent back the rolled eye emoji and told me “goodnight”. That people is what really piss me off. JUST BE FUCKING HONEST!! Usually I would’ve been a little firecracker and popped off. But this time instead I just said, “okay”. I’m not giving CPR to any more dead situations with him. And I know I say that often but I really need to start healing from him. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I guess you can say the “Young Boy” has forgiven me from that drunken night because he has agreed to go on this “Date” with me. Am I nervous yes. Do I feel like he will stand me up, yes! But after us talking on the phone for 2 hours yesterday about life in general. I think we will be okay. One factor I have discovered about the “The Young Boy” is he’s a very emotional person. And he has some things he needs to heal from as well. So today while we are out, I don’t want neither one of us to think about life. Just to truly enjoy each other's company. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I haven’t received any call backs from the bars I did interview with. I’m okay with taking a break and only work one job right now. I have so much I could do. My anxiety has been really through the roof and I feel it’s my body telling me to slow down and actually sleep. So yesterday I called off work and did nothing but sleep and meditate. Self care is the best care. And while you are in your healing process just remember you gotta take care of you first! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “The most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest” -Kanye West
I would never forget the morning I wanted to kill myself. I was having a major panic attack. That weekend my anxiety was all over the place. I had just started a new job and wasn’t ready to start back working two jobs but I did because in my mind that was the only way for me to get over somethings that was going on. I was depressed. That entire month of October I was getting really drunk. Like black out drunk and going to work constantly with a hangover. The day before I was hungover all day. That’s when the thoughts of killing myself appeared. I thought, “was is life?” “I’m not shit and will never be shit for anyone”. The knife was in my hand but I couldn’t do it. “This One” had called me back since he was on his way to work. I broke down crying and told him I was having another panic attack. He immediately got me an uber to the hospital. When I was in the hospital among other suicidal patients, they took away all of our belongings and isolated us separate rooms. I saw five different therapist that day. They all agreed that I wasn’t a suicidal person. But just needed therapy. I went to one therapy session and was done. Should’ve stayed going but that shit cost and at that time I wasn’t insured. Listening to Kanye’s new album brought back all the memories and thoughts of that time. I’m happy that I didn’t decide to cute my throat. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. Now that is off my chest, let me bring you people up to speed. I gave my month’s notice to the clothing store. Honestly, I felt good about it. I like working there but just not happy and I need something a little more flexible with my lifestyle. Today I have one interview lined up and going to drop off my resumes at other places. I am praying that I land something within the next week or so. Step one, believe in yourself (check!). Step two, go after and get it! I’m still going to work at the bar because I am a manager there. Even though there are days that I want to quit it's something about my GM that brings me back in. Maybe because that no matter what he believes in me and always there when I need ear or advice. Besides like my old Assistant manager told me, “sometimes it's not about what position you can get next, but more so learning all you can in the position that you are in now”. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. So I’m pretty sure you all wondering about the men that I am dating. Let me make this quick for you. “Him” has a girlfriend and I’m just now finding out about her. I was surprised when I found out and I did the “Why not me” thing. But in the end, had to chuck up the deuces and keep it moving. “My Love” and I are still trying to figure out this whole long distance thing. At least I am talking to him more often now. “The Young Boy” and I started messing back around for a week. Then I got drunk and sent him an angry text because he didn’t want to go out with me one night. Now he is back not talking to me. And Honestly, I care but then again I don’t. You are not about to fuck me, use me for ubers, and come to the bar thinking you are going to drink for free when you feel like it. And I’m trying to be civil with him while we are at work but the petty person in me is trying to come out. I faked blocked “This One” for two days. Only because he wasn’t being honest with me. I would respect you more if you are honest about what you are doing. So I called him out on his bullshit and then blocked him. I unblocked him but honestly don’t care if he contacts to me. We vibe and fucks with each other. But sometimes you gotta protect your energy at all cost. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I shot my promo video for my blog this past saturday. I am excited to see the finish production on it. I appreciate all the women that came out and shared their story on why they are single. After the shoot I went to sleep I was tired. Last night I went to sleep at 9pm. I was tired woke up this morning feeling a little refreshed. I was exhausted after working three weeks straight. Today is my day to regroup, refocus, and regain some energy that I lost. We as humans all have our dark days. But remember at the end of every dark tunnel there is the light. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “If ur not creative, don’t fall in love with a creative...Save yourself”
-Wale I took a break from this blog to make sure my overall life goals are lining up in my current roles. And to be honest, after spending some time alone to think about things moving back to New York is not right move for me. If my end result is to make money off this blog, why move to another state where I would be working up to three jobs just to live comfortably. Not saying I could potentially land a gig where I could put all that to rest, but I know the person I am. I like working at least two jobs because it keeps me busy and as sad as it may sound, “out of trouble”. For the past month, I have sleeping by myself and working on myself. Didn’t realize it was a year since I left my old company and starting bartending full time. One of my old coworkers texted me and asked me how do I feel about it. To be honest I am happy. Sometimes money is stressful because you never know what type of week you may end up with. But working at the bar has taught me a lot about people in the world and how to become a better hustler and a manipulative person. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. The other reason why I have been spending so much time alone is because of my long distance relationship with “My Love”. Even though we have our problems to work out, I don’t want to do anything that would interfere with us. The other day I got really mad because I wanted to see him over the weekend. Our schedule didn’t match up. As a matter of fact, its not matching up until June. Then in June he will have his kids for the summer. I really wanted to take a baecation before his kids came back for the summer. Maybe one day he will surprise me for the weekend. Maybe one day, I will come home and he will be here waiting for me. But I don't want to get my hopes up. All I can day is take this day by day. And hopefully in the end this will be all worth it. I just wish he would call/text (check in) with me more often. But like I said we both work a lot but then again should that prompt us to make time to check in with each other more right? See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. Next we have my hormones raging like a 14 year old going through puberty of course. Ever experience a wet dream that was so good. It felt real. In fact real enough to the point where I woke up in the position I thought I was having sex in (missionary from the back). And lately they have been coming like clock worth. Now, I have thought about going through my phone book and dialing up some numbers. Then the thoughts of why I stopped talking to them in the first place always crosses my mind. It’s like I have a conscious on having sex. WHO THE FUCK AM I NOW?! Recently “This One” and I have been back on talking terms. And though I miss our sex, think about our sex while masurabting, and he has the been the guy multiple times in my wet dreams; I can’t get over the fact how much of my time he wasted. And even though I want to tell him all my sexual desires (because he loved it when I did that), I can’t stop thinking what if he doesn’t feel the same. Like I can’t imagine someone rejecting sex from me. And honestly don’t want to get denied sex. That would be one of the worst feelings in the world as a female. So I am going to keep all my nasty little thoughts to myself and try to move on. But I am Tati and I am known to be ticking bomb. So are going to watch our liquor consumption and patiently wait until “My Love” and I have some time. I just feel very sorry for his penis when we do. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. This long distance relationship is actually really good for me. I’m spending more time in the gym, wanting to come home and actually sleep instead of being out all night, and finally, being able to get up and write this blog. Getting in tune with myself is what I am calling it. Not sure how to end this post. But I am ending it. Its my off day and I have a billion things I want to do. So until next time people, keep ya nasty thoughts to yourself, drink water, and eat right. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “It’s easy to mess around when you have someone, its hard when you try to make him that someone”. -My Big Cousin Joy
And after that trip our situationship might take a lot more work than I thought… I was actually ready to come back home from Indianapolis. It snowed the entire day on Saturday, plus you need a car to get everywhere, and there is nothing really to do. I was ready to get back to the city and make money. I was happy that I could spend time with “My Love” but on the flip side of things we are two completely different people. For example, he is the type of person to stay in. I am okay with staying in maybe a day or when its really chilly out. But the next day I need to be out doing something. Saturday it snowed which I understood why we stayed in, but on Sunday I thought we were going to be out. Instead we got dinner went to a bar and I had one drink then went back to his crib. It wasn’t nothing special nor romantic as I thought it would be. I thought I would be greeted at the train station with flowers, hug, and a kiss. But instead he was 20 min late picking me up and with his friends. Trust me people I am not complaining at all but I have known “My Love” since I was 17 and I expected more out of him. His friends were cool so I didn’t mind. It wasn’t until Saturday when he started picking arguments with me. Now, I am not the one to pick arguments anymore myself, but I have done it so often that I can tell when someone is picking one just to pick it. It wouldn’t have turned into several arguments if he would have watched his tone with me. I am an emotional creature when it comes down to it. At times I can dish it and take it but when it comes to “My Love”, I can’t take it. After one argument on Sunday night, I went to the bathroom and cried. I came out and went to sleep. Didn’t say anything to him. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I can honestly say this, sleeping all day on saturday was the best! I needed that recovery from St Pattys day weekend. And to be honest, my anxiety has been through the roof so my sleep pattern has been off. I missed cuddling and “My Love” is definitely a cuddler all the way. It was times were I look over at him and thought, “All these years and here we are finally” and how much I loved him as a man. I also thought, “Damn all these years and now he wants me after pushing me away for chicks that basically used him”. Next I thought, “but he so damn sexy, and the sex is amazing, finally after all these years I have the opportunity to make him mine”. But after his attitude with me asking why does he love me, made me reconsider about all of our years. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I love him. No denial in that. But after spending a weekend together, I can tell he still thinks i'm the 17 year old Tati he first met. I want “My Love” to understand that I have grown so much since then. He needs to take the time to learn the new woman that I am today and not the woman that I was years ago. He needs to understand what type of woman I am when it comes to a relationship vs the person I am when we were fucking around. I dont wanna throw in the towel yet because we have all these years. But we if we are relying on all these years and if that something we are holding on to, then we will never get to experience the true virtue of us! Besides after “The Young Boy” sent me off when I got back on Monday makes me not want to waste my time on anyone anymore. See the irony this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “Just a small update for my readers...it’s only right”...
Its 2:50 and instead of me waking up out of a luxurious nap, I’m here blogging. My sleep pattern lately has been all off. It's going to be even more off this weekend. I am literally working doubles back to back 9am until 3am and hoping to get at least 3 hours of sleep in between. I’m not complaining because I need the money. And if you have been following this blog then you know how much of a workaholic I am. I have no time for anyone this week. I guess you can say I’m trying to get back to the old me. Being alone and working. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I told myself this week I was stop drinking since im working doubles. And after last Sunday I just might. According to my best friend, I called myself trying to pop up at “This One” birthday party at a strip club. I was drunk out of mind and basically angry since I wasn’t invited. I then called the “Young Boy” to come over. But he didn’t want to. I cursed him out. I said some really mean things including threatening his job. I next called “DJ” to come over. I rolled with the next morning with him laying next to me. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I went to get a massage for the first time. I figured this would be a better alternative for my anxiety than working out. And it worked. But you want to know what crazy people, I woke up Wednesday angry. I sat on the side of my bed and cried. I felt angry with myself that I allowed all these guys to take up my energy. I was in a happy place before I met “This One”. But I used “The Young Boy” as a distraction from “This One”. And then I called “DJ” because I felt lonely, horny, and drunk. I have to protect my energy! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I wish I could sit and type more but now its pushing 320 and I need to shower and leave out for work. It’s going to be a long weekend. But maybe this is the distraction that I need. To work and be at peace with myself. The hardest thing in life is getting comfortable with being uncomfortable. It’s called growth. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her.  “Not everyone is meant to join your journey”
-Drunken Monday Night thoughts…. It’s finally over! And I did it! Prior to turning 27 I planned and executed an event that would change my blog for the better. And I must admit people, it was a lot of stress, and sleepless nights. But at least my anxiety didn’t get in the way of it all. It was fun and I made sure the people there had a great time. Even though there were some minor hiccups in the mix, my team and I still pulled it off. I was kind of upset that my best male friend didn’t fly in for it. He would have made sure those hiccups were cleared and would have taken care of them. But I am the more grateful that he made my vision with all my graphics designs come to life. Like my other male friend said, this event is going to make me grow a lot more. And by the end of it, I am going to look at life, relationships, and partnerships in a different perspective. He was right! See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. One person I am surprised at that stayed by side was “My Love”. He came in from Indianapolis and calmed me down that morning. He made sure I was straight. Another one I am surprised at is “The Young Boy”. I had him working at the event at the last minute. But he showed up and supported me all the way. You would think with those two at my event as well two other guys I am talking to, I would be in a world of trouble. But I wasn’t. And as a thank you I made them all take shots together with me. I worked the crowd and danced with each of them. None of them said anything but I think “The Young Boy” peeped “My Love” and I leaving. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. The next day “My Love” and I decided it was finally time to have “that talk”. You know that “what are we doing talk”. According to him I am indecisive in choosing men and that I never come visit him. So later that night I booked a train ticket to go see him in a couple of weeks. Could this be the relationship I need? A long distance relationship? The night before my birthday I went out and had one too many drinks with a friend. I called “The Young Boy” and i’m guessing I spilled all my feelings out for him. I don’t remember what I said but he was more confused than mad at me. That morning “This One” took me to work. I told about my event and “My Love”. We kissed when I was getting out the car but when I reached over to give him another one he pulled back. I guess that was a one time thing. Later that night I thought “The Young Boy” was going to come over but after giving me the run around spill, I snapped. I told him I felt like I was begging and I’m not that type of woman. He replied, “okay then”. I came home and went to sleep. The next day at work, I ignored the shit out of him. Looks like he still has a lot of growing up to do. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. I’m officially 27. I remember when my mom was this age. She was always going out to the clubs. The young me thought I was going to be the same. But instead here I am blogging and trying to figure out my next event to plan. I told myself I was not going to make any career changing moves until May or June. I still have to weigh out my options when it comes to working at the bar or going back to the corporate environment fully. Moreover I am proud of myself. I accomplished my first big goal of the year. But like I always say, when my career flourishes my love life sucks. And since I am becoming more in the spotlight, it sucks even more. I want to call “The Young Boy” and tell him the reason why I am upset but then again, would it even matter? Like with “This One” shit is getting real and when shit gets real the fun stops. Our fun is stopping. And even though I don’t want it to end because I see the full potential man that he could be. But maybe he is not meant for this journey with me yet. He still has a lot of growing to do. It's like the same thing “My Love” said to me a couple of years ago, “Once you as a person become ready then we will be ready”. See the irony in this? All the more reasons why not to date her. |
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